Kansas sunsets are beautiful. There is no doubt about it. I just had to share the beauty.
This was a few nights back when I was headed to a friend’s house for an evening of chatting and wine. I feel lucky that I finally have a ‘friend’ in this tiny town. That is a downside to small towns, I am the only one that is around my age. Seriously, I may be the only 24 year old female in a 20 mile radius. I kid you not. Friends are slim pickings, but true friends nonetheless. She is a great friend and will be there for me when the going gets rough and when there are times to celebrate. This was a great night!
On to my next topic: Bold Blogging.
I feel like I am reluctantly posting and posting sporadically as of right now for a few reasons:a.) super busy with living life (aka: my beautiful new niece Annika!) b.) School is crazy, 13 hours a day at a job is not normal and it needs to stop c.) I have something on my mind that is pretty much all consuming. I doubt the whole world wants to hear about it and I am just generally fearful of the negatives that can come along with opening up.
I have the same feelings that you do when a new relationship takes on more serious notes. It is scary because you don’t know how the other person is going to reacact and let’s face it, you don’t want your heart broken.
I promise I’m not scared of any of you and I know you are all supportive and awesome! You have shown me this time after time but I am still scared to completely let go. The scary thing is that if I share it with all of you, I know I’m going to have to truly feel all the emothions I have been putting on the back burner.
I know that when I read other’s blogs, I LOVE when they are honest with themselves and the rest of us. It just seems more authentic and I value that they open up. It’s not that I’ve been fake with you but in my life, I have had a pretty drastic change of emotion that is reciently becoming consuming. ….Like really consuming. I‘m worried that noone wants to hear… but hey, you don’t have to read Spinach and Sprinkles. So, if you don’t want to hear what is on my mind skip it.
I know that several of you have to have had the same experiences with blogging. I couldn’t be the only one. Has the blog ever forced you to be more real with yourself than you really want to be. I mean, it’s like a daily journal that is just asking for you to say what is really on your mind….