Let’s take a moment to discuss why I have some of most amazing readers on the face of the earth:
- You are kind enough to read this nonsense every day that I post.
- You don’t shun me when I don’t have enough time to post every day.
- You don’t shun me when I don’t have enough sanity to post every day.
- You add your great thoughts and make me smile.
- You have such amazing hearts.
- You are just AWESOME
I have gotten several questions and a few e-mails regarding what is going on with me and my wonderful body right now. I call my body wonderful for a few reasons. No, not that I think highly of myself- but I do think highly of my Creator. There are people in this world that have bodies that could be doing better for them. I pray for them. Yes, it’s true my body isn’t working the way I would like…. But, since when do I know what is best for me?!
^I didn’t know what was best for me then ^…. I still don’t know. So, *RIGHT NOW* I’m concentrating on the good things it can do.
For the past month and a half, I was supposed to call the doctor every single week to let them know what’s going on. I call the doctor to tell them that nothing has changed. The standard doctor response is, “Wait another week and call back.” ……. I was supposed to call on the 16th. Nothing had changed, I was ready to hear “Wait another week and call back” but much to the terror of my heart I heard, “We need to see you as soon as possible. You may have cysts on your ovaries. When can you get here? Today or tomorrow. Right now would be best.”
*RIGHT NOW?!?* Ummm, hello it is 10:30AM and I am at work trying to educate a room full of 9 & 10 year old children. *right now?!?* It is a 3.5 hour drive down there. You need me right now??!? Am I just supposed to walk out on a room full of kids, hand them a box of matches, gasoline, and a how-to video named “How to light things on fire?” Ummm, I don’t think so! *RIGHT NOW* is not a good time for this. I don’t have time right now. I’m not prepared right now. I simply can’t right now!.…….. But, I had to do it.
You caught me— Okay, so I didn’t leave a box of matches, gasoline, or the how to video. I’ll save that for another day.😉 But, I did have to leave the moment my sub got there at 12:00. I didn’t have time to make lesson plans, I felt like I abandoned my kids. I hated that. The husband couldn’t come along since it was such short notice, so I headed down the long road by myself. Darn.
After 3.5 hours on the road. I arrived to my 3:45 appointment just on time. I’ll spare you the details but I did get to hear “Well, it doesn’t look like there are large cysts like we were afraid of. So, we have that to be happy about.” They tried to get me to come in on Thanksgiving morning- I kindly declined and said that I really needed to see my family, that would be what is healthy for me- family time. I have to go back on the 25th, the day after Thanksgiving, to start a new round of medication. I’ve been on two different kinds since I last updated all of you.
I am thankful that *right now*, I am feeling very positive and hopeful. For a couple of weeks there, it was super tough. I was mad and I felt abandoned by my body. It has not abandoned me, it is just taking its dear sweet time. In true Julie form, it is doing exactly what it darn well pleases. Yep, true Julie form right there. (family, I know you are laughing right now. That’s okay. I deserve it.)
*RIGHT NOW* I’ll be thankful for the body God gave me, He gave it to ME for a reason.
QUESTION: What is great for you *RIGHT NOW* ?